Good morning and Happy New Year! Well, one of them anyway.
It's 2017!!! 2+0+1+7 = 1 New beginnings!
Numerology speaking, 2016 was an end of so much with it being a 9 year and a year of completion. Now that we are in the 2017th year AD, we're in a new way, a very new way. 2017 is a '1' year and is all about new beginnings for us all, in every situation we can imagine.
The number '1' is a forceful and uncompromising number. This means your new beginnings are coming, whether or not you are ready for them. Prepare yourself. Hold yourself and be ready for anything. For so many, 2016 was difficult and I wish that I could just say that it would be better in 2017.
The truth is that beginnings are as difficult as endings, as deep wading and as tumultuous. How do you glean perspective? Where do you choose to put your energies? What will you feed to nurture this 'new'?
Culturally, there are several different New Year festivals that happen. I quite like to celebrate 4 different cycles in differing ways. Spring Equinox, Summer Solstice, Harvest Equinox and Winter Solstice are good times to make resolutions and not so far spread apart that we forget our resolve as time passes. I will take the four types of rebirthings and little deaths that come to us all year long and rejoice in them. Utilizing the energies to serve myself and my closest ones, the very best they can aide.
Yesterday all of the Yule tree, decor and lights were taken down and save for some rearranging, the home we rest and draw inspiration from is back to some semblence of normal.
Yesterday without making a point of doing so, we all went through thoughts of how and what we've been through and how much we have learned in this last year. For our entire family, it has been a very balanced year where we all learned a great deal of personal lessons we are quite grateful for.
Last night there was no celebration, no party or glamour. Just a good film, lots of love, as always, good food and the people that matter most in our lives were near us. This is and was all we could ask for. What more do we need?
We no longer drink alcohol or throw parties like we once did. We have a dfifferent perspective on the rythym of our lives, the ebb and flow. It's calm, peaceful and reflective. Most of all it's filled with love, understanding and so much peace.
This morning, I awoke before the rest zof the family and stepped outside onto diamond glistening, icy snow left from the rain that came to wash away whatever needed washing from 2016. I stared up at the big, bold and beautiful Sun and gave thanks. I have seen 41 years of life so far, working my way towards 42. It's been an interesting and adventerous life thus far. I have risen, I have fallen and I have gotten back up again, so many times that I have lost count. I walk slower, breathe deeper, smile wider and with more purpose. When I feel sadness, I let it come fully and I feel no guilt or shame in this. When I am happy I allow that without fear of someone elese's green-eyed gaze. When I am angry I want to understand why before I lash out, not that it always works! Human I am, painfully so.
But oh, that Sun! So bright, beautiful and radiant with love. A new day is upon us. Each new day, a chance for new life, new experiences and new adventures.
I have lived fully these passed 41 years. I don't expect the next 41 to be any different. One day, I pray that I am sitting with young ones on my knee, telling them of the many adventures and silly ways I have lived my life. I will hug onto my dearest and best friend, the love of my life and these young ones will know love, committment, trust and loyalty and safety in our embrace.
2017 is upon us and all I can do is feel gratitude, compassion and understanding for everything that has transpired over this long and arduous 12 months. Every tear, every joy, every step I was brought closer to my hells and my heavens.
Last year made me whole by tearing me apart and I couldn't be more relieved, grateful and proud of all that I walked away from and towards. It's been so freeing and for the first time, for myself, in my own heart, I feel welcomed to the home that is me. A stranger to herself in all ways, no more.
Author: Cari-Lee Miller
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