It's been a long and crazy week with lots of debris floating to the surface and cream rising to the top.
There's a way to maneuver through it all and there are ways to recognize what exactly is the cream or the debris. What do we save in its richness and what do we recycle for it's worth?
This last Moon has been so powerful. Calling back pieces of ourselves to us. Reclaiming what is ours, recognizing what isn't. Seeing fully the masks of others and ourselves so that we could better understand what is and what should never be.
One thing is for certain: We're not the same as we were at the end of last week and if we are, it's because we held on too tightly out of fear of change. We all had a choice. Use our follies and fears as crutches or steps forward.
Do we face the fear or cling to its many facets of manipulation? Because that is all fear does. It manipulates us into making poor choices and backs us into corners that we refuse to walk out of, repeating old behaviors that no longer serve us, that never ever served us really. The lessons have been learned and we know that it's time to move forward, not backward.
This Moon opened us up and scraped out our innards. It made sure there was nothing left and forced us to replace everything with clean and scoured parts. Yet some of us refuse to see ourselves. Some of us are wholly stubborn and put rusted and corroded pieces back into ourselves while still blaming the others for not tending to our parts as if it was ever up to anyone but as the individual. That's going to hurt horribly in the end. As it all cycles back, it's going to cause us pain.
I don't know who is doing what, I just know what I am serving within myself.
I had to look back into the depths of me once more, much deeper than I sometimes allow. It's dark in there, it's intimidating to see and recognize that the whole of you doesn't always serve you in your best ways, for the most productive and enlightening, enriching outcomes. But once you see, I mean truly see what's going on, you cannot go back into it with any justifications. What's seen cannot be unseen unless you somehow blind yourself with a hot poker of lies and self-manipulation. I don't know how to do that. I never have.
New is here. Old has washed away. The debris is from the hellish storms we've set upon ourselves and it's time, truly time, to step onto our path and our light with the darkness we've been hiding from ourselves. Who cares about what we were showing anyone else? It's what we had kept hidden from ourselves that has caused the worst harms.
So now the clouds are broken up and blue skies are so clear behind them. There is no wanting except for that which we deny ourselves. There is only a balance that we must find, between heart and mind in a meld to make them one.
Can you walk this tightrope? Are you ready?
I can't seem to step off of it and when I do, I'll hold on by my pinky to make sure I can jump back on and refocus, rebalance and thrive once more.
Find the space within you to free yourself from your own bondage, as no other exists.
It's all in you.
Author: Cari-Lee Miller
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