The morning of a Full Moon always feels, well, bigger, more profound, more spectacular and a whole lot more energizing.
This morning's Full Moon, for me personally, is somewhere I feel right at home with. You see the Sun is in Gemini and the Moon is in Sagittarius. My Sun and Rising signs meet and I am calm and aware of it all. This energy will feel like a bit of a paradox for some, but for me, it's the way I love. One foot in logical Gemini and the other foot in whimsical and philosophical Sagittarius. I feel right at home in these energies. The balance found in the mix is just lovely.
So let's talk about that a bit, shall we?
Throughout this week I've been talking to a few people searching for the deeper or hidden meanings in this life. Young, middle aged and old alike are asking:
'What is my purpose?' 'Why am I here?' 'Who am I really?'
These are deep questions that they are looking to answer and so they should! So we all should! It's not an easy task to set out on and it's one that needs to be taken quite seriously if it's you true wish. To know thyself is no frivolous task that we set out on. Neither is it something that offers a quick fix.
I started asking these questions long ago in a psychedelic space with a dear young man I was head over heels in love with at the time. We were asking bigger questions than self but inevitably it lead me to the questions of me and my journey here on this Earth. I did not accept the call in the answers I received but I never forgot the messages. That was a gloriously rich spiritual time in my life that forever changed me and prepared me for everything I have embarked upon in the last 12-13 years.
My life path began to slightly clear all those years ago so that I could see some of the destinations up ahead and off to the sides, waiting for me to stop, rest, learn and realize. I got lost along the way. We all get lost along our way. I can't say that I'm not a little lost now either! I still have many more stops up ahead and although the path may be clearer formed, I don't still see, I just feel and on an inner level, I just know in a clearer way. My saving grace is something I shared with a dear sister this week and one that I have been speaking about for a few years now: 'Let that which needs to die, die. Nourish the life that needs to thrive.'
Sometimes we hold onto unhealthy beliefs, whether they be about self, the world, our environment, the people we love or the people we think might be blocking or helping our path. Letting go can be difficult, especially when we've held on to tightly to our ways and our thoughts. But we are not our thoughts. We are so much more.
It's funny, the way that the planets are aligned and my comfort in their pattern. Gemini wants us seeking logic and will distract us to the point of chasing our own tails at times. Which ever way the winds blow that is the direction we get pulled to. But Another aspect here is Saturn in Sagittarius which isn't having any of it! FOCUS!!! :D Honestly, as much as Gemini's Sun may want us to be logical and spread ourselves a little thin, Saturn is there to remind us that we are on a mission here and it's time for us to see that a bit more clearly. Gemini's way will give us a sense of relief when the burden gets to much to bare. Breaks are always needed when were studying for big exams. This is no different than that. Take the time to allow yourself to venture off into the spaces you need to and don't overwhelm yourself in the magic of you you are ready to truly be. It can be intense and some will take it a little too fanatically, Gemini steps in to blow away the smoke fro the mirrors to allow reprieve.
There is a warning in this however, with a Full Moon comes massive amounts of energy and for some, those not willing or able to take in the truth of the ways being presented to them, it will leave them feeling a bit of a mess emotionally. Breathe and ground as best as you can. Don't pretend to be less than you are and don't fake that you are more. Just realize the truth of you and make peace with it. Remember, there is no good or bad, there just IS. Of course there is the light and dark and the positive and negative but all can work in tandem to reach the goals of the NEXT in the NOW. Does this make sense? For some, it absolutely won't and for others it will be crystal clear. It's going to be an intense few days of downloading and then it will subside. Self realization is coming your way! Your souls purpose is in clearer focus. If you've been doing you in a way that is true to your spirit, you're gaining a momentum the like of which you have never felt before! Doors are opening up for you where once they were barred shut. Affirmations are being presented to you from all corners of your world! It's time! It's finally time! So run with it.
Those who haven't been honest with themselves those that have been borrowing from others to make their way, they may have a tougher time of these energies. Those pretending to be someone they are not for fear of facing who they are will have no choice but to face the mirrors before them. They don't drop the masks, the mask just go brittle and break up in their hands. There is no more hiding from self. You are exposed for yourself to see. Who cares about what others are viewing, this is about what you see when you gaze into the mirrors. What you will see is the truth and not the little lies that you tell yourself. You mist face these things in order to move forward into reparations. Can you finally accept this challenge? Can you be you instead of them? Can you stop crying that it's everyone else's fault and take your life into your own hands like a wounded bird and nurse it all into wholeness for yourself? Can you be real?
It's like the energies are forcing you to place your hand over your heart and all that is sacred and vow to be truthful, once and for all. Not just little white lies that were telling ourselves need revealing, but ALL the lies. All the things that comfort us in our darkest hours, all of the ways we hide in our own shadows. Light touches the darkest corners and burns away the madness or the madness is set to flames until it burns itself out. Oh what a sight that will be! Burn bright and beautiful! Set examples for the rest in your plight. It's worth it to reveal the truth in your darkest recesses. It's worth it and it's time!
I was saying to a friend that I die little deaths, over and over again in this life but what comes with these deaths but rebirth and new life! So as you allow this death or repressed self, you are able to rebirth your own reality to the truth of who you are, what you came here to do and who you came here to be, in truth, in honour of your spirit and your heart.
Intuitively you know exactly what you need to do! You hear that little c=voice inside of you telling you what's what. So, don't ignore it or you will live in a whirlwind of regrets and chaos that won't die down to create order for some time. That's not what you're here to create, is it? Maybe it is. It's not what I'm here to create.
In the past week I have felt things amping up and opportunities have been knocking on my door. Every time I answer the calls, I am blessed with goodness. every time I stand in who I am, I am rewarded. Every time I allow my truth to shine through I am recognized by myself and others who live in the same ways. And every time I exceed my own expectations of self I am challenging those around me. To what ends? I don't know and I don't care because that is not my path. I may clear some debris for another as they walk but I do not lead in any way. None of us do. When we lead others they do not follow their path and we actually get them lost. Our way is our way and their way is theirs. We all have indivdual paths to wak and cannot tell another the way that is correct for them. We can light lanterns, we can clear some debris from the roads, we can whisper directions as suggestions but the path they inevitably take MUSt be their own.
I have a fire in me, the likes I have not felt in so long. Like the spark that resides in my depths has been fanned by my own airs and coupled with the Universal energies it is now a bonfire set to the highest orders of blazing glory. What to do around a bonfire but dance and drum and get naked! Naked and unhidden. Naked and free. Naked and no longer ashamed of that which I am, what we are meant to be. I see my truth, I've been living it and forever reaching towards it with open hand and stretched out arms. It's right there and I am finally touching it without fears of what will happen once I hold it fully, once I take hold and own what it is that is mine.
There is a huge opening upon us! I massive allowance for our truth and our glory. I'm stepping through mine. Who's with me?
Author: Cari-Lee Miller
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