We woke to gray skies and pouring rains that are cleansing anything left from Winter before this beautiful New Moon in 3 days.
I've been reflecting all morning about how absolutely lucky I am and how pleased I am for reaching certain goals and always coming through for myself. Everything that I do, I do because I want to. My business is mine, I answer to no one. 'Customers' and 'clients' are my friends, both old and new and our exchanges are always powerful learning and teaching moments for myself and quite possibly for them as well. I'm not so arrogant to assume anything.
Every morning I wake up and I get time alone with our daughter before she's off for the day. Then, I get time to myself for reflection, poetry writing, meditation, yoga, and so much more. After that, I wake up our son and we got to make breakfast together, work on workbooks together, read together, learn together. He teaches me and I teach him. This homeschooling/unschooling life is such a blessing. Every evening I have time with my lover/partner/best friend that's just for us and sometimes in our mutual exhaustion it's enough to sit in silence together. In fact, the silent conversations are something we like to play with. Telepathy anyone? 😂😂😂 I'm not even kidding !
I'm free to do the things I love, the things I thrive on, those things that motivate and inspire me. No days boring unless I want them to be. No day passes me by where I'm left feeling unfulfilled. I quite literally do exactly what I want. Even on the days where I'm doing things that I don't necessarily want to be doing, I know in the end it's for the best and so there is no terror, no horror, no despair or dread from doing that which I know must be done.
I've never been in search of riches, wealth, or fame. All I've ever wanted was to learn and to share ith others and so, I do. Each day I'm able to express myself in my most honest and true form. I don't need to hide, I don't need to wear a mask, I don't need to pretend like I am someone or something that I am not. I am allowed to be exactly who I am. I don't need to create a story of who I wish to be. I don't need to read a story that I created for myself of the person I wish I was. I've lived this life in the most alive ways that I've ever known how to live. I have done all of the bad things...well many of the 'bad things'. I have done all of the good things. I have been hurt and I have hurt others. I have loved and I am loved. I was created and so I create.
To some, it sounds silly when I expressed how when I finally made my own homemade deodorant and traditional Easter bread, bolstered my self-esteem as much as it has. It's true though because it absolutely has!
I get to do exactly what I want on a daily basis. Thank goodness for my own learning of what's truly important in this life. All I want to do is to live life truest to my core essence of who I am as I love my family and so that's exactly what I do. I've never wanted to miss a moment of my children's experiences as they grow and so I never have. I wanted to build a strong, loving, secure marriage/partnership/Union with my husband and so we have and we continue to apply mortar to our foundation.
It's not perfect, nothing ever is but it is so close to whatever perfection might be that I can't even imagine complaining about my life. I am nothing but thankful, grateful and so very humbled by this life that we are living. All that I can do is give thanks and be truly grateful for the abundance that is my life.
I could have used every single hardship in my life as a crutch to hobble me along on my journey. And unbeknownst to me, there have been times where I've done just that. Because we have things in our shadow selves e hide from ourselves when we're not ready to deal with things just yet. When we're not willing to admit that maybe we are the ones that are our own worst enemies. That maybe we have taken all of those horrible things that we have heard over the years and actually began to believe them. Because you see, it is always been us that is responsible for us and it is always been up to each and every single one of us to figure out what it is that makes us the incredible creatures that we actually are. It was never for us to take from others to get what we thought we needed. It has always been something that we've needed to draw from within ourselves.
When you realize that your life is your own and that you truly are in control to the best of the possibilities of the Fates, then you realize just how amazing this life is and how many incredible opportunities you have before your feet, waiting for you to pick them up and run with them, nurture them and celebrate them and your Self.
Whatever you end up doing after reading this morning's post, make sure it's true to your heart, make sure it resonates with everything in your being, make sure when you feel inspired your whole body rolls up with goosebumps, your skin tingles and your heart feels like it's so full of joy and excitement that it just might burst.
And above all, never ever sell yourself short or sell out and lose who you truly are and how the gifts of your authentic Self benefits the entirety of what and who you touch.
Happy Friday 🐺🌱🌼❤
Author: Cari-Lee Miller
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